All we ever needed was to recognize what we can become

“All I ever needed was your smile
And this life”

[Mono Chrome – this life]

Reshaping this girl-shaped space into something less broken seems to be working.

Slowly I’ve been working to add movement into my day – the girl who might dance around at the drop of a hat was having a hard time getting up the gumption to even throw down a silly moment of cabbage-patching. Today, I managed a bunch of house chores AND 20 minutes of yoga AND 15 minutes of lifting dumb bells. Colour me surprised, whatever shade that might be.

Rob and I have been cooking more, and of course my diet’s been pretty damn amazing. I have been eating so much local produce, and even more fruits and veggies than usual… I already eat quite a bit, but I feel lighter, healthier lately. I’ve started keeping a kombucha pellicle and taking the tea daily [thank you, Cassidy!] and that seems to give me a lift. I drink water all the time, as there is very little else that I drink these days. That part of my life, I think I have a handle on.

I even managed to do my Morning Pages today! I know! [imagine me saying it like Craig Ferguson, that’s totally what I did.]

Part of this big change comes from an impending kick in the pants. My partner in the mineral eyeshadow business is giving everything over to me this week, for good, as she’s swamped and unhappy and wants to take control of *her* life and start having some fun and fulfilling work with her sewing business again. I say “Good for her Yay!” because she is awesome, and I recognize that this is the Universe giving me the Cosmic Kick in the Ass that I needed to really get up and live again. This means, in unarguable terms, that I will be much much much busier soon, because Coffin Color is quite slammin’ these days. Success means never having to sit on your rump and feel sorry for yourself… or you won’t be successful for long!

So! This is actually a positive post. I know!

I write, as openly as possible, about my experiences with life, love, creativity, depression and not-depression. I share opinions. I promote compassion and change. I talk about music. I also write poetry and short stories. I like to share them here.

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