Under the veneer of my sometimes cheery, sometimes melancholy image, there lies anger.
I don’t talk about it much. Hell, most of the time, I don’t really feel it – even though I know that it seethes in there, shut behind mental doors of steel-like fortitude. But it IS there, and I need to acknowledge that sometimes. Ignoring it doesn’t help the situation.
When I used to get angry [from stress, usually] at work, I would go somewhere away from everyone else and find something harmless to kick, like empty boxes. If there wasn’t anything like an empty box available, sometimes I’d just jump up and down while channeling that anger, until I felt relieved.
Right now, I want to punch things. I’m in a situation where I can’t express what I’m feeling, and I can’t talk about it to anyone, and it makes me angry beyond belief. I’m tired, y’all. I get so tired of caring only to have that taken advantage of, or abused. It isn’t IN me to stop caring, unfortunately, so I’m stuck with feeling this way.
What do *you* do to relieve anger that can’t be dismissed by talking it out?
7 responses so far ↓
1 MonkeySis // Jan 24, 2010 at 9:29 pm
That’s why I put on stripes and blow a whistle. It’s not that I do it to *release* my anger. But when I’m out there, I forget everything other than what’s happening right in front of me because I have to. Then when I come back to it on the way home, I do so with a clearer head because I’m no longer in the moment.
2 MonkeySis // Jan 24, 2010 at 9:29 pm
Oh, and I hope you know you can always talk to me.
3 Keith (Mindless Pursuits) // Jan 24, 2010 at 10:35 pm
I’m stuck internalizing it. I fear letting it out, even a little, for fear of letting it affect my kids. I was going to channel some of it into a blog, but tonight realised that wasn’t going to work either. If you find an answer, I hope you share it.
4 Dana the Mick // Jan 24, 2010 at 10:53 pm
If you want to rant, I’ve always got an ear (and sometimes TWO, even).
PS
When are you coming back to visit? You would have loved my last sets (oh yeah, I sort of started DJing again).
5 Dana the Mick // Jan 24, 2010 at 10:55 pm
Oh, and to answer your question, I usually smoke a cigarette or put holes in walls… so that’s not very helpful…
Maybe just punching a pillow would work…
6 Dances With Cats // Jan 25, 2010 at 8:34 am
I play angry music, really loud, and scream along to it. Usually I do this in the car because I don’t think my neighbor would appreciate it. Some of my favorites:
“Flashback” and the live version of “Stigmata” by Ministry.
Anything from Social Distortion’s “Mommy’s Little Monster” album
“Something I Learned Today” by Husker Du
“Fire on Babylon” by Sinead O’Connor
“Bastard” by Motley Crue
“Dumb Waiters” by the Psychedelic Furs
“Black Steel in the Hour of Chaos” by Public Enemy
“Dead Cops/America’s So Straight” by MDC
Pretty much anything by G.B.H.
7 Maya // Jan 25, 2010 at 6:02 pm
Johnny Rotten!!!
I had forgotten all about PiL.
Onto the topic at hand, I like to dance when I get so much energy built up and there is no way to let it out of my mouth. When I had a punching bag I would put my gloves on and beat the heck out of it. I guess some form of exercise or deep breathing usually helps to release the pent up frustrations and angry feelings.
I also agree with Dances With Cats. I like to play music loud and sing along. It doesn’t have to be angry music. I like to listen to silly stuff too. I usually just have to find the right tune to snap me out of the fit of rage.
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