Goodbye 2011. Hello 2012.

Fireworks by Anna Cervova
Fireworks by Anna Cervova

I don’t do resolutions. I don’t like the idea of putting enormous pressure on oneself to perform, and change is often a slippery eel that likes to wriggle through one’s hands and slip away when least expected.

That being said, I don’t have a problem looking back over this year and then making some notes about what I’d *like* to achieve in 2012. Guidelines are great. Sweeping proclamations, not so much my thing. *grin*

I will be using the questions posed by Susannah Conway in Unravelling The Year Ahead 2012.

What did I embrace in 2011? Freedom. Change. Openness. Possibility.
What did I let go of in 2011? My marriage. Settling for “okay.” Allowing people I love to bully me, to the point of letting go of them if need be.
Identify 3 lessons of 2011.
1. Do what you fear. That’s where the biggest payoff is.
2. I can do whatever I put my mind to doing.
3. I can make enormous change in the world; I have more power than I ever realized.
Identify 3 highlights of 2011.
1. I moved back to Baltimore. That was a surprisingly good move on my part.
2. I vended two big shows locally and sold out both times, to my delight.
3. I re-discovered old, solid friendships and loves.

What did I discover about myself in 2011?
I am fucking strong in every way. I fear change but I come out so much better on the other side. I’m starting to learn to assert myself again, and it is GREAT.
What was I most grateful for in 2011?
Finding Rob L. Finding myself. Building stronger relationships with my mom & my friends.
Describe 2011 in three words:
Tumultuous. Vibrant. Confusing.

Here’s what else I have to say to the old year:
You could have broken me, but instead I became stronger. I started out the year in one place and ended it in an entirely different one – in every way possible. A lot of people have animosity toward you, but I think you and I are parting friends. Thank you for the lessons and for not totally kicking my ass, like 2010 did.

HELLO 2012!!!

What is my word for 2012?
How does my word make me feel?
Excited. Hopeful. Rich.
If I lived and breathed my word every day in 2012, what would be different for me?
I would feel and be even stronger and more successful in all aspects of my life.
Can I think of ways that I am already living/experiencing this word?
My business is growing. My relationships are amazing – making me feel more fulfilled in every way. I can see things changing for the better for me.

Fast-forward to December 2012. I am sitting in a café, musing over the last 12 months.
Where do I want to be…

… in my head? (work, dreams, goals) Confident. Feeling that I am really nailing this self-employed thing. Creating more art, creating more products. Making my business not only big enough to sustain me, but to feel like an unmitigated success. Feeling like I’ve got my shit together.
… in my heart? (relationships, family, friends, self-love) With more friends, more good times with them. Solid in the relationship with my love. Repaired from the divorce. On even, equal ground with my mom. Surrounded by awesome people.
… in my physical world? (home, health, hobbies) In a home of my own. Healthy, eating well, getting plenty of exercise. Being incredibly creative.

Can I think of four more words that will support my Word this year? They could be anything from inspiring words to names of people to things I want to invest in.
Rob L. Xiane. Confidence. Love.

There’s more.
But I’m keeping that for myself. And you should go and download the worksheets and find your own answers. What do you want from the year to come?

I hope you’ll share 2012 with me. There are amazing things to come.

I write, as openly as possible, about my experiences with life, love, creativity, depression and not-depression. I share opinions. I promote compassion and change. I talk about music. I also write poetry and short stories. I like to share them here.

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