I’m alive, even though the status of my blog has been questionable at best. Moving it? Yep. It’s coming. I’ve already moved the Threeravens blog/site – this one is next on the list. Keep tuned for updates on how that’s going.
I’ve been sleeping in totally weird bursts of time. It makes me feel disjointed.
Mostly, [...]

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It’s easy to forget.
Sometimes.
Things will be changing.

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Before I even start to get wound up, lemme point you to Harriet Jacobs’ excellent dissection of why rape jokes aren’t funny, you jerk: A woman walks into a rape, uh bar.*
As far as I can tell, the “joke” is usually that it wasn’t really rape at all, or it wasn’t a “real” rape, or [...]

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One thing that the Wellbutrin seems to have done is take away my ability to cry. It’s actually really frustrating, because the FEELING is still there, I just have no mechanism for letting it out. I can even feel the emotional welling that would signal the usual burning feeling I get before the tears flow… [...]

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And she is not good or bad
Oh, but she wants all she could have
Your soul’s familiar call
This is it… I am and
It’s not like me
[Claire Voyant - not like me]
My silence is equal to my lack of passion. I am adrift in a sea of “I don’t care” and “I’m too tired” and [...]

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All the people gather
Fly to carry each his burden
We are young despite the years we are concern
We are hope despite the times
All of the sudden, these days
Happy throngs, take this joy wherever, wherever….
I wish to meet each one of you And you, me, you, if I can and I can
We have many things in common, [...]

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Nick Drake always seemed to get the words/sounds right for these feelings. This video was, ironically, a tribute to Nick Drake that Heath Ledger put together.
When does the past stop having a hold over us? When do we get to put the monsters to rest? I have two; one is dead, and the other [...]

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Action. This is a SERIOUS issue for me currently, as one of the hallmarks of my depression is an inability to take action on most things without extreme effort and discomfort. You can imagine how difficult this chapter has been for me, then! In fact, this is why I had to stop and take a [...]

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lyrics from Corpus Delicti [twilight]
It’s one of those nights again. The urge comes over me, pulls from inside the muscles and bones and nerves of me, begging me to smash myself into something just so I can feel anything other than this, an ache that resonates and pulses and compels me to do anything to [...]

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tonight’s lyrics from All About Eve [scarlet]
I look at myself, through this close lens, this tight vision of who I am and who I was and who I might be in the days to come… this is the hardest work I’ve ever done, you know – the work of breaking down the girl and rebuilding [...]

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