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So tired, tired of waiting… tired of waiting for you

January 27th, 2010 · 1 Comment

It’s easy to forget.
Sometimes.
Things will be changing.

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Tags: depression treatment · self-exploration

the written word is a lie

January 24th, 2010 · 7 Comments

Under the veneer of my sometimes cheery, sometimes melancholy image, there lies anger.
I don’t talk about it much. Hell, most of the time, I don’t really feel it – even though I know that it seethes in there, shut behind mental doors of steel-like fortitude. But it IS there, and I need to acknowledge that [...]

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Tags: daily update · music · self-exploration

if you close the door, the night could last forever

January 21st, 2010 · 8 Comments

Before I even start to get wound up, lemme point you to Harriet Jacobs’ excellent dissection of why rape jokes aren’t funny, you jerk: A woman walks into a rape, uh bar.*
As far as I can tell, the “joke” is usually that it wasn’t really rape at all, or it wasn’t a “real” rape, or [...]

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Tags: depression treatment · self-exploration

subjective pics of misled youth

October 16th, 2009 · 7 Comments

Did I have fun, back then? I think I did from time to time, although I was consumed with trying to establish who I truly was. I did stupid things, things that I’m lucky to have lived through. I spent too much time in dirty alleys, decrepit houses, squats… I was reckless because that’s when [...]

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Tags: photos · self-exploration

The fear of wanting you know it’s true/the fever of wanting all of you

June 29th, 2009 · 10 Comments

And she is not good or bad
Oh, but she wants all she could have
Your soul’s familiar call
This is it… I am and
It’s not like me
[Claire Voyant - not like me]
My silence is equal to my lack of passion. I am adrift in a sea of “I don’t care” and “I’m too tired” and [...]

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Tags: depression treatment · music · self-exploration

Life in this arm of the Milky Way

November 2nd, 2008 · 2 Comments

Art is everywhere, from the texture of the restaurant table to the lines in the petal of a flower. All one has to do is open the eyes to see these inspirations all around us.
In that spirit, I’ve started to do a 365 Photo challenge. I’m carrying a camera around with me wherever I [...]

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Tags: self-exploration

every day is a new chance

October 21st, 2008 · 3 Comments

Sleeping sometimes brings deep insights. I should really put a disclaimer on this page:
PARDON OUR DUST
WORK IN PROGRESS
…maybe that should be a sign I wear around my neck, too. Ha!
Anyway, yeah. Hi! I’m Xiane, I’m a mess but I’m trying to be better, and I REALLY appreciate and am awed by the patience that you [...]

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Tags: photos · self-exploration

The warrior Joan.

October 21st, 2008 · 3 Comments

I was talking to Eric, one of the delightfully fun and interesting baristas at my local coffeeshop tonight. We were talking about various things we’d learned about religious topics, and I shared a quick gloss about my First Communion and Confirmation ceremonies -yep, I was raised a Catholic, for those that didn’t know! One of [...]

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We have many things in common, name three

October 15th, 2008 · 1 Comment

All the people gather
Fly to carry each his burden
We are young despite the years we are concern
We are hope despite the times
All of the sudden, these days
Happy throngs, take this joy wherever, wherever….
I wish to meet each one of you And you, me, you, if I can and I can
We have many things in common, [...]

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Tags: creating · depression treatment · i plant the seeds cluster · self-exploration

What would we do without you?

September 30th, 2008 · 3 Comments

Well, if its so deep you dont think that you can speak about it,
Just remember to reach out and touch the past and the future.
lyrics from Kate Bush [love & anger]
Breathe in. You’re connected, through that breath, to me/her/him/them – the World. You’re breathing in the breath of the Earth, the same air that generations [...]

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Tags: i plant the seeds cluster · self-exploration